I sat in this room alone for a few moments on Saturday and
pondered why it took me so long to return. Over forty years ago, I lived in the sorority
house and even held an office (Song Leader…which was tons of fun). But, college was emotionally hard for me
mostly due to my family and upbringing and it tainted my decision making.
Oh, I know most of us have times in college we regret. But, at the same time I was active in my
sorority, I was also making many poor decisions for my life. Now, I thought my sorority sisters were well
aware that I was a mess. So, out of embarrassment
and a little shame, I have stayed away from them for all these years. It was too difficult to go back.
They have had reunions and developed long time friendships
over the past 40 years, and I missed out…because I was stupid. When I arrived at my sorority reunion, these
ladies threw their arms around me and showed genuine love and excitement that I
was there. They only remembered the good
times and had chosen to forget the bad….or they were not even aware of all my
struggles at the time I was going through them.
than now. I will enjoy getting together
with them from this time forward. This
is the damage of regrets and shame…it can rob us of joy in the present. If anyone is struggling with some of these
same issues with returning to your past, I encourage you to return and face
your fears head on. I think many avoid any type of reunion from embarrassment of past decisions or current ones. You might discover
as I did that the only person who is judging you is you.
Here is what I want to say to my sorority sisters…thank you for your kindness and acceptance. When I left college, my personal goals were to obtain
The strength and charisma of Marlene
The joy and giggles of Sheree
The sparkly eyes of Marilu
The faith of Diane
The intelligence of Carol Bru
The stature of Carol Bea
The sweet spirit of my little sister Vicki
The loyalty of Karen C
I believe now I have gained these qualities in my life…so thank you for the inspiration. Currently, all I desire is the career of Karen T…but I suppose I will suffice to live vicariously through her!
and I truly hope I encouraged them to look and feel their best from this day
forward. I could tell there were a few
who are putting themselves at the bottom of their own priority list…I hope they
do something special for themselves this week.Here is what I looked like during that time….oh my have things changed!! But, I still think this is the best time of my life…the one I am living right now!
embarrassed by your actions at the time or even now?
Care to share?